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Life has been difficult. I broke up with Ryder and ever since I’ve had constant reminders that make me want to cry. I’ve been being bombarded with feelings. Most of them bad. There isn’t much that brightens my day anymore. Ryder tries to get me to take him back every few days and it’s getting harder and harder to say no. This is what he does. He charms you and then breaks your heart. You let it heal and he shows up and breaks it again. I want to just yell at him and tell him to “Fuck Off” but whenever I see him or hear his voice my heart flutters and I fall for the trap again. I’m hating myself for not hating him enough. He’s intereferred with everything. I barely leave the house because I’m nervous he’ll “bump into me” at the mall again. He’s practically stalking me and I can’t say anything to anyone. He’s not a danger to me. He’s never hurt me and in a fight I would be able to stand my ground. He’s just can’t take a hint. Ranting over. -Shelby
